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In my mind I ask the guide, Thomas, to help me. He creates
"a reception hall", and invites Vicki in and locks the door. Vicki gives me
pictures of our old house in Paide. The big family room, old fashioned black piano, dark
green vases for lilies and other long stemmed flowers from our garden. Today, this garden
exists only in our memory.
A: I hold to these pictures, they will help me to come down on Earth.
Q: Are you really coming back into some Estonian family?
A: Not yet, but soon when a lot of important events will take place on Earth. Russia
starts its awakening, America will ease up its pressure on its own people.
Q: Where are you living on the other side?
A: This is your father’s estate. I am resting in the Sun, I spent a lot of time in
the Sun. Here is a really beautiful place. You father is grooming race horses, he will
deal with horses down on Earth. He is waiting for your mother to arrive. They will
reincarnate together, they have a lot of reasons for that.
Q: Will they be again my parents?
A: No. You will not meet them for a while. You have to move in another circle. You will go
together with your brother, Sevo and little Vladimir who grew so tall and became an
accomplished builder. Actually he, Vladimir Junior, came down after you to pick you up and
move into another karma circle where the work has to be done.
Your great grandfather Pyotr Vassilyevich, Yurik, your grandpa Grigory thank you for
helping grandma Lyuba, she is better. Grigory is taking care of her.
Vicki has in mind the rescue operation already mentioned earlier.
He continues.
A: I’ll try to explaining the meaning of systematizing things on Earth. This is an
continuing fight with the chaos of matter. Every time you clean your apartment, put back
your papers, you celebrate the victory over the matter. The point is: who gets whom. The
matter gets you, or you get the matter. Do you allow to sink yourself in the chaotic flow
of matter, or you struggle your way out of that matter.
Q: Vicki, I thank you for that explanation, I never saw it this way.
I would like to ask, do you see your upcoming life clearly, in details?
A: The answer is "yes" and "no", some events are already set, some are
not.
Smell of a freshly ironed suit fills the room.
Q: Vicki, I smell ironing , what it means?
A: It means I am on my way to work.
Q: Are you telling me you are practicing law over there?
A: Yes, I do. I am busy because of the flow of criminals from Russia... This is beyond
description. I can’t tell you... They make us work day and night. I put on the suit
and I am going to Russian pavilion. The non-stop trail is going on over there. It looks
like the Simpson’s trial that you watched on your television sets.
Q: It’s amazing that you know about that. What’s your
take, was he guilty?
Vicki is ignoring my question. He keeps silence...
Q: OK, this was inappropriate question. What’s going on with
the Russian Pavilion? Who are the defendants, who are the judges?
A: There are Mafia bosses, big shots and "soldiers" on trial, any kind of
"rats" from Siberia labor camps and other Russian prisons. They are the worst...
They keep building camps over here creating hell for themselves, and voluntarily they lock
themselves up in these camps so tightly that they can not go out to another place than the
courtroom for trial. This everlasting trial is created for them and in terms of Earth, is
open 24 hours a day 7 days a week...
There is another group of crimes that are still in the stage of investigation. The crimes
committed during W.W.II under Stalin and Hitler. The work involves a big number of
lawyers. In this realm so many morbid trials are going on that I can not go any further
with the description. I feel strongly that you don’t have to be in touch with those
energies right now. Too much blood, suffering, betrayal... Some produce pistols here and
start to shoot each other and us. It is sad, ridiculous... The most difficult thing is to
change the thinking patterns. War ethic as such is the most difficult realm of philosophy
and ethics there is...
Q: How are you putting up with this negativity?
A: This is why I need so much Sun and I live in your father’s estate. We go along
nicely.
Q: What was the most difficult trial?
A: Some other time, you are not ready to hear that. They bring pictures of bloody floors,
blew out brains, torture, mass graves, maybe Beria, later, I don’t want send them
power to indulge their past. I have to go again at work.
The entrance into the Russian pavilion is marked by white columns, it reminds me of the
entrance into Tartu university, but more beautiful. The trials are going on to prepare for
the trials on Earth. Justice is coming. The goal is to stop the tendencies that are
leading toward the birth of Russian fascism. Russia simply will not survive that, the
Earth will not survive that. Russian space is still needed for other aims.
Look at Germany. The truth is that Germany is going down. The temporary restoration, quick
make-up, facade didn’t solve the real problem. Germany is slow in its spiritual
growth. Jews, the victims of that regime, are also still suffering, they can not let go
the pain. As a result, a lot of impartial people who had nothing to do with this tragedy,
made wealth out of unspeakable suffering of millions. And this is a problem for this side
as well.
Q: What are all these criminals doing on the other side? For
instance, the murderers of the czarist family?
A: Don’t ask! They are still burying themselves in quicklime to experience the pain
all over again because they can not forgive themselves. It’s so hard.
Q: What is comrade Lenin doing in the Russian Pavilion, does he show
his face to other Russians?
A: He is forgotten. He has the mind of a three year old child. Right now the Russian
Pavilion is run by the hierarchies directly for its preparation toward the future. Comrade
Lenin is no different than any other Russian. So he gets what he deserves too.
Q: What about father of all the nations, Stalin in the Russian
Pavilion?
Vicki gives me divine pictures of gorgeous Caucasus mountains. I
hear the quiet play of the folk music instruments. But there is Chechnia war. The
prisoners of war are held in the most unspeakable conditions. Vicki is saying nothing.
Vicki lets me look at the picture... It is so beautiful around, the beauty is so close,
but the prisoners are chained toward the cliff...One face is very familiar, that being is
crying for mercy, he is the one who is asking for mercy. I feel a black cloud is trying to
envelop me. If I’ll feel sorry, I’ll be swallowed by that cloud.
Q: No, out of here, out, Vicki I want out, do not let that energy
touch me! Thomas, help! God, HELP ME!
A: Now you think twice before you ask this kind of questions. Go light the candle, we will
take a break!
Q: Vicki, I am sorry. I didn’t understand why you refused to
answer so many my questions, now I know. May I ask you what are you doing over there
specifically?
Vicki gives me picture of an archive room with files, cases,
video screens and strange devices. I see him sitting behind an old-fashioned leather
covered desk piled high with files.
A: This are cases of KGB victims, one is yours. We gave you all the protection we could,
this is why you and Vladimir are in the United States today. In your country, up to this
day they can not understand how you got out and how they let you go!
Vicki shows me the court rooms, half round auditoriums. The trials
are taking place down in the center on these rooms. Vicki is controlling the flow of
prepared and sorted out files, resumes, he is working for the hierarchies directly, he is
assisting, he is their adjutant. He has two disciples whom he is training right now and
who will take over when his time comes to go down into an Estonian family to become a
lawyer again.
A: You are tired. Never pretend that you are fine when you are not!
Q: Vicki, I thank you for showing me the Russian pavilion, so many
files...
A: World literature will never die, every file is a novel, action movie, mystery story.
Sooner or later
Hollywood will dig in!
I can not believe my eyes, the Vicki’s work room is empty,
clean and fresh for a new start. How did he clean up so fast! He smiles showing me
old-fashioned cupboards from Karelian birch. All the files are put away in these cupboards
in the most orderly way. The next moment Vicki is gone... memory.
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